In my thirty three years I have known heartbreak. Quite well actually.. The pain which stands behind the tears, betrayal, anger, and lost passion festers. Thoughts which cannot be put on display for comprehension and understanding bring greater detriment to the words which were spoken. It sucks. What’s worse is the lack of enthusiasm and the indifference of a presence. As morbidity floods my mind in hope of solace, neither can coexist. Will anyone read these words? Who knows.. My current expression -> -_- oh well
Tag: LIFE
Compassion
Daggers, I swear, continuously plunge at my heart!
Left to withstand a day of celebration of one who is repentant of my existence.
A blind eye has been dealt to the consideration of my emotions.
Am I to turn a blind eye too?
The door which once was open slapped me as it shut on my face.
Compassion no longer seems to exist.
Not in me,
Not in others;
Only selfishness.
Can it be?
What was once my safe haven has now become my pool of sorrow.
A desire reminiscent of what cannot be had; such an unfillable void.
Inconsideration of self for the betterment of others has only proved one thing..
It elongates the love, pain, and compassion until the time of abandonment is ripe.
I hope I am wrong.
Haiku I.
Beautifulest one,
like a phoenix reborn new,
memory a scar.
Thoughts..
A hole so deep from which I can’t escape – this is where you’ve placed me.
Awkward scenarios from which I am bent – this is where you’ve placed me.
Hating all that is me, trapped in a body of which is not pleasing – that is where you’ve placed me.
Nondesirable tolerance until a better one appears – that is where you’ve placed me.
A heart so cold of which the very flames of hell cannot maintain – is what I’ve been handed.
Wrath, doom, vengeance.. I think not.
My soul rests at the thought of nonexistence. Maybe then, all will pass by like a blur.